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so... berserk is coming back... i don't know how to feel about it. i'm happy, of course. i'm also confused. it's cool to know we'll have an ending from a close friend to Miura sensei.. it's cool to see the art, the man, live through the hardships.. but i guess i had accepted that we'd never have an ending. i was actually distraught at the idea of someone else continuing Miura's work, when i first heard about it. i was content with our favorite struggler's ironic "end". having to roam between worlds, struggling forever on, no peace... i guess, thinking of Guts' endless battling gave me power and determination to live through my own struggles... not that they're grand,, sisyphus would probably laugh me off. either way. there's also the fact that berserk is what gave me peace about things never getting closure. berserk and... you. i used to hate things reaching their finale. i'd put it off for as long as i could and feared that i'd never be able to have a grasp over the things that i loved, love, as they ceased to be. but berserk is what finally made me understand that those things live on within you, so long as you let them, and as cheesy as it sounds, that the journey makes up for most of the goal. i'll read the next chapters for sure, but it's gonna feel weird. anyway... what a weird birthday gift haha. i start my internship tomorrow. finally found one thanks to Gift (funny coinkidink). for once i feel excited about it. i'm also seeing Leila this sunday, we'll be going to the beach i think... i'm looking forward to it. things are slowly starting to seem bright again. as soons as i was done with that dumbass entrepreneurial final, of course everything was gonna look bright haha. i'm so overdramatic... but i've been.. almost possessed, by such an intense wave of anger, these past few months. so much hate and so much despisal, rooted deep within every inch of my being, sometimes making me unable to move and sometimes taking total control over my body. it's not leaving any time soon. things are brighter but they're not any better. i'm still his prisonner. but i need to stop pitying myself. live on through the hardships too. and not let him or something else have such power over me. i'm my own self. this time last year, i was completing shadow of the colossus ahahah... i think it was a good day ? i've no memory of it, really, i had to go scavenging through my discussions and pictures to find a glimpse of what i'd been up to but i couldn't find much. guess i just stayed home. like today. but i already feel this one being way more memorable. :) i think i'll spend it watching some DBZ, been feeling really nostalgic of that era. maybe i'll try to complete a game as well ? make it a tradition. i've been edging FFXV lately trying to finish all sidequests but i might go and finish the story first. after all these years, i finally truly realize that i'm completely clueless and don't know anything, really (can i stop emphasizing on my obliviousness?). i hope i can continue to grow and find beauty in life. as hard as it is. kupo.