How to be a good person?

   First of all, I think you have to be aware that you have flaws. You have to be aware that you can't always be the good person in a situation. And forgive you for that. You have good sides and bad sides. And it happens to do mistakes. That's part of life. You just have to be open minded about it and not be scared about admitting your faults. You have to try to fix them. You have to be aware of yourself and question yourself.

Sometimes, life can be exhausting. It's totally fine to feel overwhelmed, it happens. Now the question is: How to get off that feeling? Well , in my opinon you have to focus on yourself. Ask yourself why are you feeling like that and try to fix it. For example if you're feeling exhausted because of school, homework and all that stuff. Ask you the right questions. Do you do your homework? How much do you work? Why do you feel pressured? Are you motivated? Do you go to bed early? Do you try to go to bed early? Maybe if you tried to go to bed early you would be less exhausted. 

Actually, I think in order to be a good person you have to be good for yourself at first. If you can't treat you right, know what you need, how can you do that for anyone? You may think: "Yeah well I always do that. I always put people before myself." Girl that's not good. Sometimes you have to know when something is bad for you. But you have to keep in mind that family is as important than you. Its super complicated. You just have to know how to balance things. But how you may ask? I know it's vague what I'm saying but I'm trying to explain.

My flaws:

I am too mean to my little sister but sometimes it feels like I don't actually think that because I don't really do something about it. Am I saying this so that people say nooo you're not that's not true? In order to reassure me? Why am I like this?

I overthink

I have a diffucult time trying to explain things.

Do I know how to lie or is it a technique I use to discourage people from thinking I lie? If i'm asking myself that, does that mean it's a technique?

Sometimes I do put the fault on the others but if I admit that, does that make me a better person? What if it's really because of them? Do I tell them? They will probably feel bad about it. So it wil be my fault if they feel bad because I told them

Is it a good sign if think that people are lucky to have me or is it arrogance? You know what, no it's not. I just know my value, that's it. I'm not saying that I'm perfect, I'm just saying that i'm good enough because I try my best. I know my value. But do i really know my value? Is it okay if I cry a lot because of my boyfriend teasing me? If I let him make me cry like this, treat me in certain way and still be with him does that mean I don't know my value? Do I deserve this? No of course but I think I will always be like that. Or is it just me who is too sensible?

Writting my thoughts doesn't help me at all I'm just as confused as I already was...